Javier phoned and told about a drawing course he is going to give in a university. He mentioned that he was going to talk about my work and then asked my favorite younger generation artists who do drawings. I was embarrassed - I have no idea of contemporary art anymore.

When I was a student I was shocked when older artist told that they don’t follow everything what’s cooking in biennials, museums and galleries. I wanted to know everything. I hadn’t money to travel to Venice or Documenta but I was always reading all important magazines. Not anymore. Now I could save money for a trip to Kassel but I never went there. I just don’t have the need to see art.  Art in general is not my passion - the intense everyday struggle with my own work is enough for me. And sometimes it’s too much. I’m an artist, not an art lover.

Today I drove to Madrid for reasons not related to art but I had a couple of free hours. I went to Reina Sofia Museum where I found two exquisite shows, retrospectives of Rogelio López Cuenca and David Wojnarowicz. Two artists that have same profession with me (most of the artists are as far from my practice as a dealer of a used cars). I felt renewed and empowered. I remembered how much I love art.