I woke up at 11.30 with a light hang over. I had too many Duvels last night with Herman in Gouden Vis. We talked about politics. He said that Europe is dead. I asked his advice if I should go to Japan for a residency where I 've been invited for three months this winter. He said I should go. I think I go and consider myself immigrant worker, not artist in residence. I'm afraid that my daughter doesn't learn to speak Finnish if I'm not around.